vertigo

This is my 3rd week...suffering from vertigo. By definition, it is a sensation of whirling and loss of balance. Simply put, dizziness. I have been diagnosed with vertigo for 3 weeks. Not working for 3 weeks, sleeping for 3 weeks...excluding the 1 week of spring break in New York when my medication worked. Ah, the 1 week of bliss and happiness in a far away place.. Then, to come back home and have the medication patch wear off after 2 days..never to have it working again. To be home, unable to work..ugh. Vertigo.
Pray that this will be my last week! Please make me better Lord. Let me be me again.

bad day #2

I can't remember the last time I was this upset that I literally got out of bed to let out some steam before attempting to go back to bed. I had a terrible day today and I can't sleep until I let it out.. so I can laugh about it.

People are so mean and so rude. I can't stand it sometimes! And I fear that I might become what you call a bitter, grump. I felt like I was wearing a "kick me" sign on my back or something. I was a primary target for the most random people, strangers!!! What the heck. Ugh. Good news? This day will never happen again. Bad news, who knows if it will happen again.


Annoying lady complaining and complaining about a generic medication at work. Annoying, but no surprise. One of those "extra" busy days at the pharmacy and the front store manager getting on my case about forgetting to put my purse in the locker room, again. Super scary. Lap top not working all of a sudden! What the heck. Driving and accidentally cutting-off a real JERK and the guy being a total *JERK* about it. That made me so mad. You don't understand.........that one made my blood pressue go up..........oh my gosh..........Then, going to the Mac Store to get lap top fixed. Super-Duper annoying. Showing up late to class because Mac Stores take FOREVER. Made me sad. Finally, pouring rain after getting out of lab. GREAT.


Bad day, bad day... I hate today.

God, please let me have a happy day tomorrow. Pretty please.

Good night.

my valentine's day

This year's Valentine's Day is so...not. lol. My day consisted of a 6-hour-shift at work followed by a 5-hour class/lab. Oh, not to mention a lovely lab quiz that had to be taken today also! Hehehe. Honestly, I didn't really mind. It's just another day..It was so funny to watch all the classmates RUSHING to get the heck out of lab. Almost spilling boiled water or forgetting to put lab supplies away properly..etc. We all got out surprisingly early for the sake of celebrating this day with our loved ones.

Happy Valentine's Day.

a missing piece

It hasn't been even a month since my big sister has left my side and already I feel like a piece of myself is gone. At first I didn't notice it, but now I realize how much I'm missing her I'm so sad. It's hasn't even been a month yet, how am I supposed to survive an entire year?

Luckily..my obsession with technology/gadgets/mechanical devices or whatever-you-wanna-call it are totally paying off.

I talked to my sis through Skype, which allows me to talk to her through my laptop plus be able to see her and hear her. Totally awesome!! Whoever made Skype = GENIUS. Talking to her and watching her show us (my mom and I) her room, the bathroom, the kitchen, the living room.. as she carried her laptop around the house in Laos was totally amazing. :o) Made her seem not so far away. It was weird that she was showing us her place and it was during the day when it was almost 9pm over here.

While I was downloading Skype to my laptop..I was conveniently chatting with her through google talk on my Blackberry. It's pretty incredible how these computers/phones can enable sisters who are off in different parts of the globe to be able to carry a conversation instantly, not to mention for free. Bravo.

Miss you Jo! Sending lots of hugs and kisses your way..

looking back..

I have never had all my deadlines due within the same time frame before like this..School, nursing school application, work, & church. It's been tough. And I am "beyond burnt out" (hahaha) as someone had once said to me before. Recently, I realized/discovered how "stuck" I am with my commitments and how really tired I have become from them. Not just tired, miserable. And it is finally time to do something about it before it's too late.


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Time to SUBTRACT. It's no longer additions, but subtractions I must learn to do. Yes, Stephanie. You will learn how to say the word, "no" and be given room to breathe. Yay.. That would be kinda nice.


For the past *few months..or longer, I have felt like..



..and maybe..




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*Steph's Goal: To be more.......everyday.